August 27, 2008
One more day until we are in the Holy Land!!!!
My laptop is alive - though I am still tweaking it now. It is noticeably faster now. And I bought a better mouse for it, instead of that crappy touchpad. It will make doing my teaching stuff on it alot easier. Tomorrow I will download open office for it so that I can use basic word processing programs on it. That is really the main program I need for the teaching gig.
The main feelings I have been experiencing is almost melancholy in the sense that I hope that what I have built up in my head....is not over exaggerated...or that I regret once the trip is over, what I am about to do. Almost like a premature buyers remorse. It really is weird. I am sure it is all in my head, and that I like I always do, think and over analyze things way to much. I don't know how to stop that from happening. It's like on autopilot.
I am concerned about my safety, yes. I am concerned about being gone from home and my cats and what will happen while I am gone. I am concerned about what happens if something happens and my sister or whoever forgets my cats...these are all stupid thoughts...I know....I am concerned about the flight...cabin pressure LOL turbulence...and fuck the last time I was on a plane...well that really sucked so I think about that too. Granted I was like 11 years old and it was a Piper Cherokee type of small plane.. but still..it was my only flying experience prior to this. Yes, I know the happy pills (aka Mr. Ativan and Mr. Xanax) will be there...and in full effect LOL.
Well anyway, Friday I am going to see about leaving work a bit early to drive out to California to visit my grandmother. I have not seen her in 4 years and I want to see her before I go to the Holy Land. While I am there I will see about picking up something from Cali for the girls..(Yes the Scripts I gave them do scream California - since they were autographed from the cast).something that just screams California! LOL It will be my first time home (I will always consider myself a Californian) since I moved to AZ.
In the awkward part..is that I was told that I should tell the girls that I am a bigger guy so as to not shock them. Eh. I don't really know what to say about it...but eh. No, thats not true. My response was that friends shouldn't care. It was awkward, to say the least. I don't know how to really respond to things like that - not to mention the fact that I don't like to talk about me in the first place, at least flaws of mine. Anyway, I don't care, I am going to have the time of my life no matter what. And, by the end I am sure I will have a lifetime of excellent memories not to mention recordings.
Shut up, we will NOT forget your cats.
Rob will be stopping by your house on his way home to take care of them. Stop panicking, you will ruin your trip. Stay positive and let your anxiety go.
Posted by: Laurie at August 28, 2008 10:11 AM (4kcdX)
I am not panicking....at least I don't think I am. It's just the longest I will be gone from home.
Posted by: Robert Woolwine at August 28, 2008 11:10 AM (V+ylD)
I am not panicking....at least I don't think I am. It's just the longest I wil
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